My daughter is amazing! She is smart and talented and just a joy to know...I am blessed everyday that God chose me to be her mom! But recently, with all that has transpired in last few months in my family, financial and health concerns, it is hard for this wonderful 5 year old not to have some anxiety. My husband and I try very hard not to show these concerns to our daughter. But kids pick up on things and they pick on on them quick. Sometimes too quick.
She has been complaining of stomach pains every time that she eats. Occasionally, she would just mention it at random. So we took her to the doctor and there doesn't seem to be anything "wrong". EXCEPT for all the changes in the house. Shall I begin:
-I went back to work
-Torrance is at home with her now (which is awesome)
-Torrance is recovering from some back issues and hip issues
-She has picked up (I am sure) that money got really tight for awhile (she has great hearing!)
And that is the little things. Her little world was turned upside down!
It just broke my heart when I sat her down and we had our talk about what was bothering her. I asked a question and towards the 3rd questions she responded with..."and now I am gonna cry". I was crushed.
We ended up having a great talk and I reminded her that she can always talk to mommy. But the mark on my heart was there. I felt guilty. I felt like a bad mom. I felt like I had let her down and I had abandoned her feelings and where she fell into all of this. I always boasted on how she was such a trooper with the on going doctor appointments and the meetings. And how she just "went" with the flow of things. How she was such a "good girl" and so well behaved in the hospital and in the ER for my husband. Really? Did ever once asked her how SHE was doing! Ughhhh! The pit in stomach.
Tomorrow is another doctor appointment for my husband. This appointment will be to discuss surgery. Then we will ALL spend the day together. I don't know what we are gonna do, where we are gonna go, or how long we are gonna do it! But we are gonna spend a day that a 5 year old would approve of.
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