Guilt?

A very dear friend of mine called me tonight. I haven't had the opportunity to talk to her for....months. And I feel bad for that. She actually thought that for a moment that I was avoiding her or too busy for her. I love her! Everyone knew/knows what has been going on in my house these past few months...my husband's health, me going back to work, not to mention the rough financially period we are in.  But a part of me has to think for a minute....why didn't I call her? I have to say when my life is rough, I tend to not open up to her or others like a should...she gets really ticked at me for that.  She is a wonderful support and always has great advice for me. And she puts things in perspective that I can't always see...sorry mom! But bottom line is I should have called.

How many times have I put that off with other people? With friends that love me and want to support me? I feel guilty! Guilty that I may be putting a burden on them. I feel guilty that it isn't fair for them to hear my "sob" story...everyone has their yuck right?

Well I have learned over time and I am still learning that sometimes, at least for me, people get tired of their OWN yuck and need to hear someone else's yuck! I am a big advocate for that! I get tired of my own stuff , my own problems, and my own needs. I need to hear and help others with theirs. I have learned that most of the time that when I am helping or advising or listening to others, sometimes just sometimes I can figure out my own stuff.

So I guess I have learned my lesson...at least I hope so. I need to remember that people love me and they want to support me. And I need to make time to be available to my friends..that helps me too.